What is it about FAMILY?

I love my family! Let's just start there. They are the light and joy of my life; they are the bane of my existence. It is the perfect dichotomy - you can't have one without the other. No joy without pain; no pain without reaching the heights of ecstasy.

You will not know what the summit looks like unless you take that first step up the side of that friggin' mountain.

I wax philosophic tonight. But, that's fine, I'm lacking sleep, I'm hungry, I'm irritated with life and my body hurts. All in all, it's going to be a great day. I can just feel in my soul (something my daughter doesn't believe in, I found out today) that life is getting ready to make some drastic changes). I like this time of year - change is on the wind.

I used to really, and I do mean REALLY hate the fall. It brought on the "October Shits." Well, that's what it was so lovingly called in my house. It was a time when I was GUARANTEED to get depressed and crawl inito my "cave" and stay there until the winter thaw. That would be sometime in January. This year, I am actually feeling pretty good and actually looking forward to doing a couple of art projects. That is actually ASTONISHING. I cannot remember the last time I picked up my jewelry making supplies and did ANYTHING of a creative nature. So, stunned is a good word for how I feel about the impules I've been having.

And, that is SO EXCITING. A year ago, this month, I couldn't get out of bed - I was so exhausted. I was in te throes of a TERRIBLE Chronic Fatigue/Fibro episode. It was about six months with almost no time out of bed. The entire episode lasted newrly 18 months.

That is what I have been recovering from recently. I can now actually drive a couple of hours at a time, I can walk a little over 40 minutes. My daughter and I are going to start doing pilates. It is going to be a nice "bonding experience." If I have to beat the Universe into submission...

Well, I'm going to try and get some sleep...I'm in the middle of some insomnia AGAIN. I hate insomnia. And, I'm actually feeling a little tired. So, I'll post this and see if I can't get some sleep.

Days of Depression Do Pass - Just Be Patient

There really is nothing worse than waking up in the morning and realizing that you are going to spend the day being depressed.

So, I love my daughter, she suggested that we go get our hair cut today. So, we did. She got a lovely haircut from the woman who cut her hair, and I, of course, got crap. thankfully my hair is very long and all I did was get my hair trimmed. So, given a couple of months and it will be grown back out.

Then this early evening I got a cut on the inside of my mouth. So, here I am, blood in my mouth feeling just terrible and knowing that I will never be able to eat dinner. My day was just terrible.

So, what can I do to make tomorrow a better day? That's a really good question, and one that I wish I had a ready answer to.

I want to be able to clean my house and cook the evening meal. Fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue and constant pain have been the constant hounds from hell that have taken over my body.

Cycling on Guaifenesin

One of the most difficult things to learn about while taking Guaifenesin has been cycling. It is a difficult concept to grasp in the beginning, to be sure. On the one hand, you come to Guaifenesin for your Fibromyalgia symptoms because nothing else has worked. On the other hand, you aren't ready for the cure to be worse than the disorder. And, for a short period of time it certanly feels that way.

First, Let's define cycling.

You take a specified dose of guaifenesin (which you arrived at through titration) twice a day. When you "cycle" you are forcing the phosphates out of the muscle tissue that have built up over time. The build-up of phosphates has caused pressure on the muscle tissue themselves as well as pressure on the nerves from water build-up. Also a by-product of the phosphates.

Today I actually examined the calorie content on the Ben & Jerry's that I have been eating on a regular basis.

Ok!!! And now I am motivated to start the HG strict diet that I have been telling myself that I am going to start for - what, the past four or five weeks now.

You see, I am hypoglycemic. And, this is a diet that is specifically designed for people with hypoglycemia. It is also designed for people with fibromyalgia who are on the Guaifenesin Protocol. This is a medical treatment for fibromyalgia. It is not particularly well known, even though it has been around for about 30 years. It can cure fibro. That is something that is also not well known. However, it is a long and arduous process.

If you are interested in finding out more information about the Guai protocol - I recommend you go to this site:

http://www.psha-inc.com/guai-support/

It is the oldest site on the Internet that is dedicated to the Guai Protocol, and it has the best information available about it.

Well, I'm not much into chatter tonight, so that's it.