What is it about FAMILY?

I love my family! Let's just start there. They are the light and joy of my life; they are the bane of my existence. It is the perfect dichotomy - you can't have one without the other. No joy without pain; no pain without reaching the heights of ecstasy.

You will not know what the summit looks like unless you take that first step up the side of that friggin' mountain.

I wax philosophic tonight. But, that's fine, I'm lacking sleep, I'm hungry, I'm irritated with life and my body hurts. All in all, it's going to be a great day. I can just feel in my soul (something my daughter doesn't believe in, I found out today) that life is getting ready to make some drastic changes). I like this time of year - change is on the wind.

I used to really, and I do mean REALLY hate the fall. It brought on the "October Shits." Well, that's what it was so lovingly called in my house. It was a time when I was GUARANTEED to get depressed and crawl inito my "cave" and stay there until the winter thaw. That would be sometime in January. This year, I am actually feeling pretty good and actually looking forward to doing a couple of art projects. That is actually ASTONISHING. I cannot remember the last time I picked up my jewelry making supplies and did ANYTHING of a creative nature. So, stunned is a good word for how I feel about the impules I've been having.

And, that is SO EXCITING. A year ago, this month, I couldn't get out of bed - I was so exhausted. I was in te throes of a TERRIBLE Chronic Fatigue/Fibro episode. It was about six months with almost no time out of bed. The entire episode lasted newrly 18 months.

That is what I have been recovering from recently. I can now actually drive a couple of hours at a time, I can walk a little over 40 minutes. My daughter and I are going to start doing pilates. It is going to be a nice "bonding experience." If I have to beat the Universe into submission...

Well, I'm going to try and get some sleep...I'm in the middle of some insomnia AGAIN. I hate insomnia. And, I'm actually feeling a little tired. So, I'll post this and see if I can't get some sleep.